canistayhere4ever

STARFIELD

Through forgotten convictions

Misplaced affection I'm losing the sound of Your voice
I've been chasing after emptiness
Trying to tidy up this mess
I swear I've been down this road before
I want to get back to where it all began
When I would long for only You
Like a child, I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So, for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?
I've lost sight of what first drew me
To the love that pursued me
The joy that inspired my song
The friendship that was all I knew
he arms that I would fall into
Seem miles and years from where I am today
I got to get back to where it all began
When I would wait for only You
Oh Lord, like a child, I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So, for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?
Can I stay here forever, here with you?
Surrounded by Your mercy, clothed in Your truth 
Always, I'll stay, always here with You
Can I be here forever, here with You?
Can I know what it's like to deeply love You?
Always, Lord, let me stay, always, here with You
Like a child, I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So, for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?
Can I stay here forever here with You?


I fell in love with this song 5 years ago. Those were the days when i felt so frustrated, so confused and so in pain and  God used this song to bring me back where I should be. His presence, his throne, his arms. Jesus is my first love but I know i have hurt him so many times, I haven't been a very faithful lover . But his response was always awesome. Despite my monstrous sins and compromises, My Jesus loves me not just the same but even more sweeter than the first time I ever met him. 


Tough times, difficult people and circumstances out of my control do have the tendency to get me back to my cynically rebellious old self. I question, and question and just question. I get mad, angry and start hating a bit.;(
But truly His power at work with in me is greater than anything else. I know I can do this. My God is up to something really BIG and that is why I have to go through another time of pain and frustration because of my commitment to teach, to love and to excel. There is a  price for commitment and I'm willing to pay it.


I'm writing this to cheer my self up. Now, I'm smiling. My best days are not over----because the wave is forever.And I am staying in my father's arms forever.