I like keeping old journals and diaries. I enjoy reminiscing good old days but most of the time it leaves me laughing and crying over my experiences all over again. 2010 was too much of a year for me.I can give you all the best and worst reasons, and so today I decided to throw this diary away. But before I did that, i tore some of the pages where I wrote my heart out to God. The toughest and the best times of this life always gives me the chance to write.
May 3, 2010
Human love is nothing but crap.
A roller coaster ride of emotions.
I don't want that.
Before lying on my bed,
I opened my Bible and it led me to Isaiah 43.
These very words echoed through my heart and soul.
" I have summoned you by name, You are mine, Jane."
"You are precious and honored in my sight, and I love you."
Words from the heart and mouth of my God and maker.
Enough for me.
May 5, 2010
My misery,
my brokenness,
my loneliness,
my desperation,
my hopelessness,
They all bring me so much closer to you,
My Lord, My God. Thank You.
May 6, 2010
The pleasures of sin
can be enjoyed for a minute, an hour or a day.
But the pleasure of Christ
is ours to keep forever and will last for eternity.
Which way do you want to go?
The choice is yours, Jane.
May 13, 2010
Who can understand your ways Oh, Lord?
No one.
Your thoughts are higher than ours.
Your ways are mightier than ours.
The best thing to do is trust you.
Yes, Lord. I trust you for everything that's happening in my life right now.
I know you are a good God and you only desire what is good for me.
Thank you and I love you.
