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I am no writer, but a great feeler,,, I say so because everything I write does come straight from my heart.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Auntie for Life!

wrote this 2 years ago, I present it to you again with minor editions

Aunties, what exactly are their roles?
I love my aunts. But this aunt I'm talking about right now is really special.
I think I spent almost half of my life with her here on earth. (literally living with her/ she used to live with us)
I saw almost half of her life as well. I remember her going to college, becoming a Christian, getting involved in the church up to the time she met her prince ( king, baker king) and the that moment she walked down the aisle. (I was really young then, maybe that's the reason why she didn't choose me to be her maid of honor) (but I had the chance to fit her gown after her wedding, that was more than cool!)
I was with her the very time she gained much weight because she already had a baby in her womb. Then I saw how she built her family together with her husband. (the one and only Jimmy, also known as Angelito (little angel)

As a teenager, I looked up to her soo much.I liked  the brands she wore, her pants, shirts, her sandals (that flat, brown, Classic sandals) and vice versa because she liked most of my things too.
Not to mention, I also followed the way she cut and styled her hair.
My mama didn't have to spend time doing homework with me because she was there, my number one "teacher". We got into petty arguments too but when it came to studying, I was always very easy to deal with. I was a good student and I listened  to all her nuggets of wisdom. I learned the joys of reading and writing with her that after I sneaked in to her diary, I was so inspired to start my own.
She was my mentor in everything. I'm not sure if we've covered everything yet. But I think we will.

Just some crazy thoughts about this aunt:
-Once, she told me that the best dental floss was the hair.  I did try pulling strands of my hair and tried it on my teeth.
-When I was in high school, she placed dirty clothes, underwear and other nasty things in my school bag.(not once  but twice)( but she made it up to me when she had to go to my school to send me the homework I left)
-she kept her love life a secret but I and my other aunt read her diary and that's when we found out about her "crazy love thing"


Some awesome things about her:
She loves her family and I do too.
She respects her parents even up to now...
She's not quarrelsome. ( I'm working my way there)
She sings for God. 
Super good vibes.
A thoughtful sister, aunt, friend, wife and mother.


P.S. I grew up not calling her auntie Judith but Inding.( no idea where I got that)


Happy Birthday Ding!!!! I'm all grown up now!  But you'll always be the "pago" I know and I'll always be your "inday" (di na lang kaayu negra)hahahahha!


Well I'm getting really good at this. Here's for you:


JUDITH
a Jesus lover,
  Undeniably a loving mother and a
  Devoted wife,
  Is in love with her family, church and work and is inspiring    others
  To be the best men and women God wants them to be for
  Him and Heaven.

I love you happy birthday!!!


Friday, June 17, 2011

SOLOtude

I am not  a loner. Proof to that is the very big family I have, with more than 10 younger cousins in both my maternal and paternal families. I have lots of friends too  with such varied age groups.I go out with children, teenagers, girls, ladies, mothers, single and not so old women and  even widows. I also have a best friend.  But despite these relationships, there is that little voice inside me that always longs for "just me" moments.
Just me and myself,
 just me and my books,
 just me in my room,
 just me and my Jesus.
These times are the most peaceful, most comfortable times in my life. The most beautiful mornings and the most romantic evenings I can ever imagine.
A week ago, this was exactly what I got. My best friend went home to her province, I was back at work and I had to be in the city, far from home. I was left alone in our boarding house.And during this time, I felt different. I was still happy and peaceful but there were other thoughts in mind.
Do I want to just live my life alone  until I'm older?
Would I settle with someone else?
What if this was also God's calling for me?
When I come to God with questions right after I've flooded my bed with tears, he always gives me answers.
He perfectly and amazingly answers me through his word.
I'm 27 and is still too young to think about these things. (Now I hear myself laughing from deep inside)
I am with kids everyday and I feel younger and younger each day I'm with them. Well, that's not what God is telling me. He simply just had to remind me to W and E. Wait and enjoy. Who says there's nothing good about waiting? A lot of things happen when we wait. (Next week, I will share the letter I wrote about waiting...)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

His Kind of PEACE

Peace, Peace, Peace
(revised May 12)

Peace! Where does it come from?
Peace, when you are so uncertain?
Peace, when you know it’s gonna hurt?
Peace, when you know you haven’t done it all?
Peace, when your expectations fail?
Peace, when your life is full of questions?
Totally ironic! But for me, that’s real peace.
And there is nothing else I feel right now.
With all the things I listed above,
There has never been MoRE peace in my heart than NoW!
So peace, peace, peace!
Cheers to the peace that God gives,
The peace He leaves to those who seek it and to those who want to keep it FoREVER!