clozejur

while having tutor time, heard this music play then.....thoughts just began to flowwwwww
mao ni closure
some not so good relationships have to end
a choice has to be made
sometimes it's good to still be friends
but at times, the best thing is not to stay friends

it's not easy to say
at least I've tried and I've seen it happen more than twice or thrice in the lives of so many teenagers,
young professional and adults

wow-endings

Today is the last day of my first semester in the bible school. I shouldn't be wowing right now cause I just finished two head-wracking exams but that's me! I'm a celebrater. I love all the fruitfulness that has happened since June till now.

God has indeed seen me through.

I'm so brown and sane! haha!

While taking two subjects in the bible school, I also tried working on my thesis proposal.
Last week, I successfully presented the first part of my thesis to the CNU panel members.
I am off to the next step.

Back to my bible school life...
Every semester, I gain new friends. I kept all the friends I met the first time I enrolled in 2010 and now I have a really growing list. It amazes me to find more and more people who are willing to invest their time, money and resources for the love of the Word.

I am also blessed with professors and instructors who are both committed and skilled to teach and impart the life-changing message of the Gospel and transcends it to become wonderful and useful guiding principles for daily, progressive, and abundant living.

Since I have decided to take this life to a higher level...everything has just gone with the flow.
God rewards and honors the heart and desire set for Him alone. Nothing, No one is able to tear it apart!

Thank you God for taking care of my HEART. Forgive me for  my carelessness. Take me on, higher, deeper, bolder till I see your glory shining upon me.

to be cont.

While sitting inside the canteen...
waiting for my thesis adviser...

I needed his signature for my recommendation letter for my thesis proposal...
I thought this was finally the chance to write about this wholesome, awesome journey!

This is my fourth attempt to get into the business of thesis writing but for CNU registrar's record, this is my third official attempt.

In 2010, CNU passed a recommendation for thesis writing students to go through a title defense before formally starting a study. This was done to regulate and screen the title before they  get displayed and criticized in the library. Some titles are really out of date and out of place. While other students dread this, I am up to the challenge.

Yes, indeed, my first title was approved right away. No questions asked. Well, I have the guts to appear really convincing! A talent of sort! Hahaha! But that was not enough to keep me going. I was distracted.

Then in 2010, I regained a little more strength and inspiration to get back on my journey. I changed my topic and had another title approved. Again, it received a very favorable response from the Dean. I worked and almost finished the first three chapters. I thought I had the perfect team, my adviser, my statistician. But waaaah! no. I was seriously wrong. I was defeated by my disappointment. I was discouraged. When October of 2010 came and my adviser told me we can't make it to the proposal date, I was totally devastated and frustrated. "I wasted my nights!"

Then there was a long pause...............

I decided to continue to pour my time, talent, beauty and diligence to my preschool work, tutorials  and ministry.

Then I entered the Bible school. A dream come true! I felt ecstatic and enthusiastic about this venture. In the Bible school, God opened my heart again with these words.

"You are no quitter Jane,
You aren't  a loser!
You were made to last! Yay!"

So on June 2012, I embarked on this adventure again.
Bolder, braver and deeper.
(and I should say, it's about readiness!)
Behind all this, was a risk, a decision I willfully made.

I quit my fulltime job, my love and my comfort haven.
This was something so many people  didn't understand..but sooon they will.

I left for this!
It has been four months of struggling...studying...battling...
I am glad I'm still sane!
I've implored heaven and earth's help for this and asked every brother and sister to pray for me as I continue my journey.
So help me , God!

till March 2013!


Cheers!!!