Thank God I'm a Woman

I miss writing and so I bet this is the perfect night, the perfect moment to just pour my heart out.
The last three days witnessed my superwoman powers. Talk about adrenaline-rush, trouble shouting, and dealing with mishaps. It had been an incredibly harrassing week but I'm glad it caught me overprepared. Yes, I am proud to say, "I passed the test." The test that seemed to me as the devil sabotaging the whole work for the kids.

Thank you God for your awesome and mighty sustaining grace. I couldn't have done it without you and all the angels you sent my way.

Reflecting it over, this world is made of of too many wimpy believers. And I say that with no mercy, wimpy!

I am so tired of all the faking, hiding and pretending that is happening around me. I am so determined to put an end to this. I don't want to waste my tears, so help me God.

Arm me with super love, grace and truth! Amen

Vanellope

 She is my Vanellope in the dump.

I do not really play favorites.

I have been a preschool teacher and an educator for 9 years now and I try my best not to have favorite kids in class.

But Resres or April Rose is different. She isn't the cutest, 

nor the smartest girl in the dump. 

There aren't so many things 

about her that stand out but I love her.

Mamakoh

 Happy Birthday Ma!

To the Mama who taught me how to serve,

to just keep serving,

and not expect anything in return.

the Mama who taught me to forgive, 

when it was impossible to forgive.

and to the Mama who taught me to be faithful in small things, 

faithful even when no one's looking.

best of all to the mama who gave me her nose,

even If I could have wanted my papa's nose bwahaha!

I love you Mah. Mag- apong na sad ko nimu ani para lang jud mabasa ni nimu sa computer but yeko ar.

You are one of the best things that ever happened to me.

One of God's greatest gifts.

Thank you for the awesome freedom and trust you have showered me as I was growing.

It taught me to be responsible, 

independent and hardworking.

for always giving me the the chance to be heard and sometimes to do the talking all the time,

you taught me to speak my heart out.

(hope you didn't regret that)

Thank you for showing me how you unconditionally love the men God has brought into your life, your husband (my father) and your two sons (my two brothers).

I can't promise I can love my man that way

(basig maong wa pa ni-abot)

but I will try, even do better.

Salamat and cheers to more years of serving together or bisag dili na together.

We're a team as we bring kids to church every Sunday morning and teach in Sunday school.

kita ra jud nang duha

I wish you'd be proud of me until forever,

the same way I want my God to be so proud of me.

I love you Happy birthday Mamakoh!!!!

My 29 Declarations

It's the first Sunday of 2013.Whooooaaaaa, i love firsts!

Our church pastor encouraged us to make positive declarations for this year.

Since I turned 29 on the first day of this year, here's my piece:

1. I declare this is going to be my best-year ever!

2. I declare an awesome breakthrough for my Centeno and Dayanan families.

3. I declare a great year of service, servanthood and servantship.

4. I declare this year to be a year of crazy love, forgiveness and joy.

5. I declare unimaginable favors for work.

6. I declare supernatural wisdom over my thesis.

7. I declare  an excellent and fantastic year for Pro.Vision.

8. I declare this year to be an awakening year for our local Christian churches.

9. I declare weddings, beautiful weddings.

10. I declare restoration of relationships.

11. I declare new friendships.

12. I declare longer and meaningful lives for all my loved ones.

13. I declare change.

14. I declare freedom.

15. I declare independence.

16. I declare broken chains and walls.

17.I declare respect among family members.

18. I declare lavish generosity in churches and homes.

19. I declare responsible work ethics and habits.

20. I declare innovations in teaching, preaching and leadership.

21. I declare creativity.

22. I declare excellence

23. I declare focus.

24. I declare  a wilder, deeper and braver walk with the Almighty.

25. I declare cleanliness physically and spiritually.

26. I declare transparency, genuineness and incorruptible honesty.

27. I declare maximum, soulful impact.

28. I declare sovereignty and perfect timing.

29. I declare music.

clozejur

while having tutor time, heard this music play then.....thoughts just began to flowwwwww
mao ni closure
some not so good relationships have to end
a choice has to be made
sometimes it's good to still be friends
but at times, the best thing is not to stay friends

it's not easy to say
at least I've tried and I've seen it happen more than twice or thrice in the lives of so many teenagers,
young professional and adults

wow-endings

Today is the last day of my first semester in the bible school. I shouldn't be wowing right now cause I just finished two head-wracking exams but that's me! I'm a celebrater. I love all the fruitfulness that has happened since June till now.

God has indeed seen me through.

I'm so brown and sane! haha!

While taking two subjects in the bible school, I also tried working on my thesis proposal.
Last week, I successfully presented the first part of my thesis to the CNU panel members.
I am off to the next step.

Back to my bible school life...
Every semester, I gain new friends. I kept all the friends I met the first time I enrolled in 2010 and now I have a really growing list. It amazes me to find more and more people who are willing to invest their time, money and resources for the love of the Word.

I am also blessed with professors and instructors who are both committed and skilled to teach and impart the life-changing message of the Gospel and transcends it to become wonderful and useful guiding principles for daily, progressive, and abundant living.

Since I have decided to take this life to a higher level...everything has just gone with the flow.
God rewards and honors the heart and desire set for Him alone. Nothing, No one is able to tear it apart!

Thank you God for taking care of my HEART. Forgive me for  my carelessness. Take me on, higher, deeper, bolder till I see your glory shining upon me.

to be cont.

While sitting inside the canteen...
waiting for my thesis adviser...

I needed his signature for my recommendation letter for my thesis proposal...
I thought this was finally the chance to write about this wholesome, awesome journey!

This is my fourth attempt to get into the business of thesis writing but for CNU registrar's record, this is my third official attempt.

In 2010, CNU passed a recommendation for thesis writing students to go through a title defense before formally starting a study. This was done to regulate and screen the title before they  get displayed and criticized in the library. Some titles are really out of date and out of place. While other students dread this, I am up to the challenge.

Yes, indeed, my first title was approved right away. No questions asked. Well, I have the guts to appear really convincing! A talent of sort! Hahaha! But that was not enough to keep me going. I was distracted.

Then in 2010, I regained a little more strength and inspiration to get back on my journey. I changed my topic and had another title approved. Again, it received a very favorable response from the Dean. I worked and almost finished the first three chapters. I thought I had the perfect team, my adviser, my statistician. But waaaah! no. I was seriously wrong. I was defeated by my disappointment. I was discouraged. When October of 2010 came and my adviser told me we can't make it to the proposal date, I was totally devastated and frustrated. "I wasted my nights!"

Then there was a long pause...............

I decided to continue to pour my time, talent, beauty and diligence to my preschool work, tutorials  and ministry.

Then I entered the Bible school. A dream come true! I felt ecstatic and enthusiastic about this venture. In the Bible school, God opened my heart again with these words.

"You are no quitter Jane,
You aren't  a loser!
You were made to last! Yay!"

So on June 2012, I embarked on this adventure again.
Bolder, braver and deeper.
(and I should say, it's about readiness!)
Behind all this, was a risk, a decision I willfully made.

I quit my fulltime job, my love and my comfort haven.
This was something so many people  didn't understand..but sooon they will.

I left for this!
It has been four months of struggling...studying...battling...
I am glad I'm still sane!
I've implored heaven and earth's help for this and asked every brother and sister to pray for me as I continue my journey.
So help me , God!

till March 2013!


Cheers!!!